2 months sober of gaming, I have finally cracked

Long story that you probably shouldn't read
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EDIT: I snipped it cause it's not interesting. Title tells enough.

Specs if anyone is interested:

Spoiler

Intel i7 4770K Processor
Nvidia GTX 760
Some random Mobo that I don't give 2 fucks about
Corsair H60i Liquid Cooling
Some case with max fans
2x8 GB DDR3-1600 RAM

tl;dr : got shitty grades in college, haven't gamed in 2 months, tried smart drugs, been using a chromebook for months, bought pc to go back to gaming

 

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y u no 8 core AMD 5GHz fegit

 

2 months? I could only dream of staying of the gaming drug for so long. Maybe we should make a support thread where we support each other...

Which smart drug you took and did it help?

 

You got shitty grades despite the fact that you weren't playing video games?

That is humiliating.

 

I love the free tutoring my school provides.

 

How the fuck do you autismos even have time to game during UNI. When I wasn't doing school work I was either lifting or trying to wheel sluts. Why the fuck do you even game during school is beyond me.

 

bich do u even oc

 

No sluts at my university

 

wasting time lifting up differently weighted plates of metal instead of impressing the ladies by hitting someone with Ashe's ult from the main spawn?

ISHIGGYDIGGYDOO

 

so is "wheel sluts" code for "i date raped girls"

 

tbh i wanted to read lawliets long winding story about how he still managed to fail uni even though he had all the free time in the world

also smart drugs is the most hilarious name ever

 

This is depressing..

 

Not everyone is insecure about their masculinity.

 

I had the whole story on my clipboard but it got deleted cause I started chatting with NJ on steam chat (with a chromebook might I add).

So basically, I failed my first legitimate college exam in Chemistry (lack of sleep and lots of reddit). I was trying to make up for my lack of gaming with reddit as an outlet. Yeah.... no that doesn't even work.

I've been stuck on an 11 inch chromebook for 2 months and as a commuter at college all I do is go home since I feel really tired. After the first month of college I realized something was really wrong with me. I can't pay attention during my lectures and my super mlg pro memory wasn't working at all (I blame TV for this since I reintroduced myself to it in early August when my old pc died). Desperate as ever, I went to reddit nootropics and discovered the world of caffeine.

Caffeine and L-Theanine are by far the perfect combination of smart drugs. Anything else I didn't want to try (racetams, creatine, choline, modafinil) mostly cause they were either viewed to me as a waste of money or cause I didn't have the time to drink more than a gallon of water.

So day 1 of 200 mg of Theanine and 100 mg of caffeine. Usually I'm a caffeine sensitive person so the 1st day I believed that I can levitate. instead of taking 1 page of notes I took anywhere over 5 pages. Shit was absolutely amazing. I thought this was a solution to my memory but if anything it just helped me wake up and pay attention and focus on the task at hand. For any of you that don't know what Theanine is, it is basically like the opposite of caffeine. It prevents the side affects of caffeine such as jitteryness, increased blood pressure, etc). The only thing it didn't prevent was my fucking urge to go to the bathroom. So like usual I took this every day in the morning with a multi-vitamin and some fish oil. I had a cocktail of supplements.

The only thing is after about a week, the effects started to dissipate. I tried taking it mid-day when I was tired and realized it didn't work whatsoever. So I've concluded that I need to be well rested in order for this to work. Plus I was still urinating every now and then (my multi-vitamin is Orange Triad at this time).

I got into my 2nd exam (calculus) running on no sleep whatsoever and around 300 milligrams of caffeine and 600 mg of Theanine. The only problem is I had a class before it which really zoned me out. Being tired and on nootropics doesn't work. However, I did completely destroy that exam. I'm still awaiting my grade but I am sure it is an A.

Overall, nootropics worked. The only problem I had with my life is that I needed sleep, so I've introduced melatonin and have been dosing on 1 mg a day. But to the real story.

I've been using a chromebook for 2 months. I just got really sick of writing my papers on it. I am usually slouched over writing on this labtop. For me as a person, I need to be able to lie back and look at something from a distance. It helps me look at the big picture. Plus I was getting sick of not being able to watch porn in HD cause a chromebook has terrible choppiness. Plus I wanted to be able to watch torrented episodes of White Collar and The Legend of Korra (I know, I'm a weaboo by stating this). At one point throughout the 2 months I had a relapse where I tried to fix my old computer but realized the the slot on the mobo was burnt out or had something in it. Fuck I was sick of not being able to game.


To conclude, I needed an outlet. This outlet is gaming. I can't play Ultimate frisbee since it would mean I am sacrificing my sleep and potentially my ability to pay attention in class. I managed to order a PC that I see lasting me for my college years. My major is biotechnology but I'm planning to change it into computer science from when I take the courses next fall. I haven't made any friends at all since I'm not as social as I would be in high school. I have however met some Dota 2 players and I plan to also play Guild Wars 2 to help out my brother with his endeavors. I'm happy that I am returning to gaming but I'll make sure it doesn't completely take over my life (it started to have less of an influence on my grades during the time I started taking college courses in high school). Hopefully everything works out.

P.S. I fixed my urinating problem. I had switched my multi-vitamin to the GNC brand and I feel absolutely amazing on it. I haven't switched my dosages but I plan on taking more than 1 dose of my Theanine/Caffeine combo. I do want to try Bacopa Monnieri but from what I've heard the effects it has on memory only start to display after 8-12 weeks (when my semester will be over).

P.S.S. BJ doesn't even lift. And he masturbates to girls that look like a melting candle.

 

I think video games is the sole reason I haven't resorted to drugs, or anti depressants.

In-fact these vices keep me sane and from hurting others seeing as I can scream at people on the internet and bare no consequences ever.

 

It's easy to make friends lawliet, and having friends would definitely help you succeed academically. You'll be stimulated by your environment, which would stimulate your wants to succeed, and you'll most likely stay away from home which is the place where you probably feel the most apathetic. I can't tell you how to make friends though because I got lucky on day of orientation, but you should find a bunch of CS kids and just talk about shit with them. And join clubs / attend club events, you'll definitely find people that way. Don't be scared to exchange phone numbers, because in this age of information, that's pretty much the only way people will remember you if you've only given them a first impression.

 

I play when im at home, I wish i could at my uni place, but the stupid laptop heats up so much i cant hold my left hann on it. Also the brightness is wonky as shit so i cant play the dark mod. I had no problem with college really. You just actually have to spend some hours before a test and 3 day minimum before a big exam. Doing 4th year and not having any big problems so far.

I find it funny you had to resort to stimulants brah, I only ever drink small amounts of grain-not-really-coffe during the exam time and just munch like 3 packs of cashews during the whole ordeal.

 

Im confused as to why people need to perform a ritual before doing a test, or even get mentally prepared for.

I just get a stick of gum.

I either know it or I don't, me failing only proves I don't understand it and need to work harder.
My chosen career doesn't accept or tolerate mistakes, I need to know my shit or I could put somebodies life in jeopardy.